The Pros and Cons of Breathing

carxcrashxlovex @ 2006-10-16T21:56:00

2006-10-17T01:57:10Z

so. i was reading earlier entries about me and nick.
and im pretty sure we were a joke.
heh.
<3

carxcrashxlovex @ 2006-05-10T15:55:00

2006-05-10T19:55:43Z

:] i just gotta stay strong.
Thats All

carxcrashxlovex @ 2006-05-03T18:47:00

2006-05-03T22:47:50Z

NOBODY CARES
♥

carxcrashxlovex @ 2006-04-27T21:20:00

2006-04-28T01:21:15Z

im pretty sure fathers shouldnt live
:]
expecially useless ones

carxcrashxlovex @ 2006-04-08T14:32:00

2006-04-08T18:33:30Z

im kinda excited for prom :]
even though my hair isnt how i wanted it
i hope EVERYBODY has a good night :]

carxcrashxlovex @ 2006-03-18T10:54:00

2006-03-18T15:55:10Z

remember ASSUME. makes an ass out of you and me.
maybe before you ASSUME that people lie you
should try and ask what happened and not ASSUME
thats what rockledge high needs to do
stop being motherfucking gay and getting mad over dumb shit

carxcrashxlovex @ 2006-02-12T11:44:00

2006-02-12T16:44:16Z

so. im apologizing in advance. im about to fuck everything up.heh
<3

carxcrashxlovex @ 2006-01-01T12:45:00

2006-01-01T17:50:32Z

This Year I...
://January
1. Did you have a new year's resolution this year? don't even remember and if i did.. i probably didnt keep it :)
2. Who kissed you at midnight? yup
3. Does it snow where you live? no way
4. Do you like hot chocolate? love it
5. Have you ever been to times square to watch the ball drop? nope

://February
1. Who was your valentine in 2005? nicholas
2. What did your valentine get you? a teddy and chocolate
3. When you were little, did you buy valentines for your whole class? haha yup.
4. Who have you done a project on for Black History Month? nope
5. Do you care if the ground hog see's its shadow or not? sure

://March
1. Are you Irish? yup
2. Do you wear green on St. Patty's Day? yup
3. What did you do for St. Patty's Day in 2005? um.. wore green?
4. Are you Happy when winter is pretty much over? no way

://April
1. Do you like the rain? yes
2. Did you play an April fool's joke on anyone this year? no
3. Do you get tons of candy on easter? yeah
4. Do you celebrate 4-20? heh no

://May
1. What's your favorite kind of flower? roses duh
2. Do you like the spring? yup
3. Finish the phrase; April showers: brings may flowers
4. What is the first spring color that comes to mind? baby blue

://June
1. What year do you graduate from school? 07
2. Did you go on any vacations last June? nope
3. Did you realize nothing special happens in June? no

://July
1. What did you do on the 4th of July? went to nicholas'
2. Do you go on any vacations during this month? nope
3. Do you Blast the A/C all day? YES.

://August
1. Did you do anything special to end off your summer? went to the beach a lot
2. What was your favorite summer memory of '05? hanging out with everybody
3. Do you go swimming a lot in the summer? yeah
4. Do you go to the beach? YES!

://September
1. Did you attend school in '05? yup
2. Who is/was your favorite teacher? coach stock!
3. Do you like fall better than summer? yess

://October
1. What was your favorite halloween costume ever? hmm idk
2. what's your favorite candy? peanut m&ms's, 100 grands
3. what did you dress up like this year? vampire lol

://November
1. Whose house did you go to for thanksgiving?stayed home
2. Do you love stuffing? yes
3. What are you thankful for? family, friends, my life

://December
1. Do you celebrate Christmas? yes
2. Have you ever been kissed under mistletoe? heh no
3. What do you want this year for Christmas? :] this one boy
4. What's the best present you ever got for Christmas? ipoddd :]

carxcrashxlovex @ 2005-12-12T20:20:00

2005-12-13T01:20:46Z

oh yah ... one thing.. me and my best friend have better vaginas than you
KTNX. we now how to get that d up :) :) :) :)
HHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

carxcrashxlovex @ 2005-12-07T21:53:00

2005-12-08T02:53:49Z

WELL.. basically.. i was kidding
everything is down again
lets see how many times this will be a rollarcoaster

carxcrashxlovex @ 2005-12-05T00:24:00

2005-12-05T05:24:12Z

everything is getting better
:)

carxcrashxlovex @ 2005-12-01T20:06:00

2005-12-02T01:05:52Z

Daughter to father, daughter to father
I am broken but I am hoping
Daughter to father, daughter to father
I am crying, a part of me is dying and
These are, these are
The confessions of a broken heart

..and saying i miss you is an understatement

this is how i feel right now

carxcrashxlovex @ 2005-11-11T11:25:00

2005-11-11T16:25:55Z

so im not single
and im realy happy
<3

carxcrashxlovex @ 2005-11-06T17:59:00

2005-11-06T22:59:41Z

wonnnderful night last night
that boy makes me happy :)

carxcrashxlovex @ 2005-11-05T14:20:00

2005-11-05T19:21:13Z

not a good start for the day
my moms best friend died
rip jodi <3

hope eveyrone is safe tonight. dont get too crazy
<333

as for that one boy who makes me happy
have fun sitting at home not at homecoming <33 hehe

carxcrashxlovex @ 2005-10-16T10:20:00

2005-10-16T14:21:34Z

yah this is how i feel.get over it
♥
read this if your missing somebody

does anybody out there
feel the way i do?
you’re too in love to let it go.
You’ve tried.
you’ve tried so hard.
& you hear it so many times,
“just go out and have fun with the girls,
if your doing other things, it gets your mind off of him,
then soon, you’ll just forget all about the asshole”
you’ve tried it.
you’ve tried it all.
& that “asshole”
no matter what he’s done to you,
no matter how it happened,
how he went away,
how he left you,
is not an asshole to you.
EVER.
it’s impossible to think down on him
no matter what he’s done.
you love him.
you swear you always will.
some days, it feels like your finally over him,
then tomorrow comes.
you think to yourself,
“i miss him so much”
“what can i do”
“i NEED HIM BACK IN MY LIFE.”
& it continues.
then it stops.
& then your missing him to death.
occasionally you cry yourself to sleep at night.
no matter what’s going through your mind
whether your thinking you don’t need him,
or you miss him like crazy and want him back that very second,
you still pray for him every single night.
you pray that he’ll be safe and that he knows you love him with all your heart still
& you always will.
you want him to know & you want him to care.
you pray that he’ll think about you.
& miss you just like you miss him.
you like the think that he does. But sometimes you get that thought that
he might not.
& that thought really hurts you.
so you continue to miss him,
and hope,
and pray,
and cry and do everything else that you do for this guy.
All because,
he went away.
& you will always
love him.

carxcrashxlovex @ 2005-10-02T09:44:00

2005-10-02T16:45:18Z

hiii me and kim. yah we hate backstabbing whores. who like guys with the name nick
and who go from nick to nick
mk?
byyeee
♥

carxcrashxlovex @ 2005-09-28T20:25:00

2005-09-29T00:25:22Z

everything is going downhill
thank you

carxcrashxlovex @ 2005-09-12T19:15:00

2005-09-12T23:16:40Z

hmm im home this weekend. cuz the weekend after im gonna be gone the whole weekend in virginia
all i know is::
friday night: carolann
sunday:nicks benefit with denae
MAKE PLANS WITH ME WHORES
<3

carxcrashxlovex @ 2005-09-05T22:29:00

2005-09-06T02:30:40Z

you seee.
i thought i was completely over you
but these tears they dont lie

i miss him. i miss him i miss him i miss him i miss him

but all i can do is sit here and watch him with her :(

carxcrashxlovex @ 2005-09-03T21:18:00

2005-09-04T01:18:57Z

so yah i love my best friends
denae. carolann. brooke
<3loveyouguys
they hold my life together
:) :)

carxcrashxlovex @ 2005-08-28T23:57:00

2005-08-29T03:57:29Z

i m i s s y o u
<3

pray for nick and his family

carxcrashxlovex @ 2005-08-25T19:39:00

2005-08-25T23:40:12Z

miss lynzeeloo: i just drank a red bull and i feel like i should do laps or feed the homeless or somthing
whoaxitsxmeagan: lol i wanna feed them too

btw: my VAGINA is better than yours :)

carxcrashxlovex @ 2005-08-22T07:17:00

2005-08-22T11:17:26Z

this is what was said to the "girl"
you are the most two faced person in my life. you break his heart. ill punch your face off? okay? got it ? good! hes the love of my life. and you better not hurt him i know you are a slut and all but if you dont like him tell him that.im glad that you decided to fuck me over. and now you are gonna have alot of shit from alot of people considering you only have one friend left. that must suck. just remember that i love him with everything in me. why him? why did you have to go for him? i cant believe that you could actully do that to someone you call your friend.. i guess we just have to see whats gona happen?
</3

carxcrashxlovex @ 2005-08-20T12:23:00

2005-08-20T16:22:59Z

well its good that you play games with my heart
real good